Contrave

Sep. 25th, 2017 04:01 am
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I just found out that the other medication in Contrave is an antidepressant.

I've been saying I need to go back on antidepressants anyway, so that's good.

I'm hoping it'll help me kick soda and fast food for good, I'll lose lots of weight, get into kickboxing and become badass (in my own mind, anyway.)




If Jessica goes to Tawain next year, I'm invited. So I have that to look forward to.




I looked up Jordan's FaceBook page to see if he got to the U.K. all right.

Doo Deep De Doop

Sep. 25th, 2017 02:16 am
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My co-worker called out sick again tonight, so I'm by myself. No big deal, at least not so far.

I'm going between writing and working on my TEFL course, and from there I was looking up TEFL jobs - including those right here at home.

Now I suppose I should log into my courses starting up at UCSD today.




I signed up for four courses.

On top of the TEFL course.

I'm completely off-the-charts bonkers. UCSD quality courses are going to be intense. I have to get on top of getting the books read and be ready to respond to people and the forums tomorrow.

The bright side is, I basically have eight hours each night to engage in study in. So, what I think will happen:

Hour One: TEFL.

Hour Two and Three: Anatomy and Physiology.

Hour Four and Five: Medical Terminology.

Hour Five and Six: Introduction to Counseling Models.

Hour Six and Seven: Occupational Safety and Security for Health Professionals.

Leave an average of an hour to do checks and various operational tasks around the facility, give or take.

Things

Sep. 23rd, 2017 10:12 pm
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I'm about to go to bed, but here are some thoughts I have in general when it comes to moving:

1. As much as I want to get. Out. Of. Here, and it's hard not to start applying to jobs right now, before I've actually gotten my passport photos signed by Father Dan, before I've completed CDAC or TEFL, etc. I am capable of rationally thinking, "Hey, need to be able to get living wage work. I can't work at Starbucks."

---> On the flip side, credentials often don't translate when moving internationally. CDAC happens to be one of the few that does. TEFL is as well.

---> I was thinking I could also begin working on credentials (like an AA or AS) that could translate to academic or vocational programs in the U.K./E.U. Like, if I worked on getting an AA or AS degree through a CCC, I could then work on finishing a degree (like a teaching credential) in the U.K.

---> London in particular is a very diverse community, so if I get TEFL/CELTA/TEYL/Etc. certified I can seek work in London. But London's very expensive. Which leads me to point #2:

2. Try to jump straight into working in a country where I don't speak the language? Or try to go to the U.K. for a while first?

Pros to going straight to another country: Force myself to learn languages. More likely to find work. I want to travel. I can work on getting vocational/academic work done in universities that translate to more countries than the USA.

Cons to going straight to another country: The U.K. has a lot of rules about who can partake as active citizens or not, so by not living in the U.K. I forego those opportunities sooner.




I've also been thinking that if I save 3-5k before April and pay off any debt, I can take a break before trying to find work and finally do Eurail, which I've always wanted to do.




Leia: You mean you'd go to England to see Jordan?
Me: ???????? No?!?!?!

Why would I try to meet someone who can't follow through on their plans in the same shopping center in another country? That makes no sense.

TEFL

Sep. 23rd, 2017 03:15 pm
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I'm trying to do my TEFL done during the night shift. I think I should be able to complete it by the first of November.

My thought is by April (earliest goal point) I can hopefully pay off all my debts and save 3k, at which pint I'd move to Europe.

More realistically, maybe September.

I'm trying to decide if I move to BELFAST first, or go straight to Italy.

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Sep. 23rd, 2017 06:46 am
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Thursday was family games night, with pizza. [personal profile] sithjawa joined, as well as the partner's large array of siblings and their spouses/etc.

After games were done, my partner showed me Who Framed Roger Rabbit? out of the "You haven't seen that yet?" queue. And we watched more of The Orville, and I tested out my stand mixer by making some cookies.

Friday, in honor of the equinox, I baked a sweet cardamom loaf. Then we did a shopping run, and my partner made dinner.

These past two days have involved a lot of small gas-powered motors around. Partner has summoned a yard maintenance company to take care of some of the tree, bush, weed, and tenacious invasive morning glory things that the ex neglected in the interminable six months leading up to departure. It's been loud, but is so much better looking now. Though there are still some more things left for today, like the stack of lichen-covered branches in the driveway.

Night One

Sep. 21st, 2017 03:49 am
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So she didn't wake up at 3:30 as promised and ignored my text asking her if she was ready to switch. So I went upstairs and told her it was time to switch.

It's super annoying she thinks this behavior is okay. But anyway.




ETA: I came down in the morning and she had closed the door where she was and had fallen asleep again!!! She hadn't started the hot breakfast!

I officially called her out on it so if she's still just sleeping all night at this point it's just tough shit for her.

Things

Sep. 21st, 2017 01:17 am
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So, at work, I've decided I'm just going to try and set stricter boundaries with Monique. Part of what we'll be doing (which we should be doing anyway) is stay in a room where the door can lock if we're having a sleeping break. That way clients can't walk in and realize one of us is asleep.

It also means that if I'm awake, Monique will not have cause to turn off her alarm and go back to sleep. She'll have no reason to think I'm doing checks anyway. And that's how it should be. Regardless of if I'm sleeping or working, the point of dividing checks that way is so one person can have downtime. If I'm studying TEFL or nursing, it shouldn't matter.

The other thing I'm thinking about suggesting is that instead of dividing the sleep each night, we instead separate it by day. Monique has already cut Thursdays from her work week, so my thought is I stay awake Sunday and Monday night and she stays awake Tuesday and Wednesday night. Then the other Sara (who works with me Thursdays) and I will switch off - one week I'm awake all night, one week she's awake all night.

That way instead of two severely sleep-deprived people, there is one person who is awake and one person who is resting their entire shift (unless there is an emergency.) Whoever is taking the lead that night is fully rested, and since the resting person will have mostly uninterrupted sleep, they should recover better if they need to get up.




So, I can't remember what happened, but there was some conversation about seeking co-parents so I looked up the website. I thought it was going to be single parents looking for people to team up (e.g. a teacher, a nurse, a firefighter, and a store clerk cooperating together so that they can save money on child-care.)

And I looked up the website and I couldn't find out more without making an account, but it's actually people looking either for free sperm donation, either without parenting rights or with the goal of co-parenting (as in, both parties actively taking part in the child's life in terms of legal, kinship, and fiscal ways.)

That was not what I was expecting! But you know? Actually sort of cool. I'm glad to see the options of how people start and maintain families increasing. Some friends I have can't have kids on their own and I thought co-parenting with them would be cool. Seems like there would be more cooperation and less likeliness of a horrible blowup than in a situation where the parenting is tied to a romantic relationship.

I think the funniest thing is that men on that website are waaaaaaay less creepy/skeevy. Nothing chases away the creepy men like 'co-parent' as part of your search.

the real ghostbusters*

Sep. 20th, 2017 10:36 pm
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doing another re-watch of the classic cartoon. we tried to do one before by renting the disks, but i think netflix dropped then or didn't have all of them, so now we're doing in on netflix streaming. some thoughts;

the animation on some episodes is messed up due to the fact that they sent stuff to japan.

j. michael straczynski wrote a lot of episodes. including what many consider the worst/weirdest episode about a man that lives near a chicken restaurant, is driven mad by the smell & then summons a demon to rid the world of chickens.
my brother said the imdb.com trivia said the producers were concerned with his mental health after reading the script. but like my brother said: "who's crazier, the guy who wrote it? or the people who approved it?"

david gerrold (writer of the star trek: tos episode the trouble with tribbles) wrote an episode. interestingly enough the one he wrote deals with the trouble a creature that multiplies can cause.

there was no pilot, not really. the "pilot" was animated music video of the characters, more or less how they ended up looking on the show, set to the ghostbusters theme song. the full lenght too, not the shorter one used for the opening of the animated series.


* i feel this should be the subtitle of the 1984 movie. that thing that come out last year should not share the same name, IMHO. instead of a re-boot they should of did a continuation. one of the women wins a mega-jackpot lottery, buys a ghostbusters franchise, maybe in los angeles, & they go from there. the guys could of done cameos as their character, except for harold ramis (r.i.p) & then gone on that way

Nursing Vs. Counseling

Sep. 19th, 2017 11:33 pm
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I think instead I'd rather do nursing and social work, with some counseling training.

I've been reading up on it and apparently a lot of rehabilitation therapies are not seen as particularly scientifically sound.

I'm wondering why, for instance, the facilities in these areas (no specific one) don't focus on anti-opiods such as naltrene over the Twelve-Step program, which have scientifically sound evidence that they are effective against addiction. Apparently the USA is far far behind other developed countries in their approach to addiction.




In learning about all of this, I'm going to try taking Contrave this year and see if it helps me stop binge-eating. Treat my problem like an illness and try to approach it as such.

Lol

Sep. 19th, 2017 07:04 pm
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Isha said Makayla had walked the into Monique snoring because she was so loud.

Okay, THAT doesn't sound like Monique. That might have been me. I know people have told me I snore pretty loudly. (I don't get HOW, since I don't have tonsils or adenoids. Also, I record myself sleeping sometimes - to try to catch me snoring and how bad, since people have woken me up less than an hour after me falling asleep to tell me I was being loud - and it never seems to catch snoring. It's like my brain doesn't do those bad habits when I'm watching myself.)

There's no way that happened recently though cuz we don't go in that room anymore. And well, I don't think I've slept during a shift in weeks. I kept getting more and more anxious about Monique's pattern. It's possible I dozed off once or twice during the time we were in that room.

However: Regardless, I'm now trying to research what legitimate ways there are to stop snoring.

the motherload

Sep. 19th, 2017 08:39 pm
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In light of the Equifax security breach announced on September 7th, I strongly recommend placing credit freezes on the following:
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    Credit freeze fees by state,
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  • UGH

    Sep. 19th, 2017 04:56 am
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    Due to circumstances at work tonight I was convinced to go in and now my co-worker is sleeping again.

    I resent letting my guilt and concern manipulate me that way.
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    Ana annoys me with how much she believes in conspiracy theories and how right-wing she is, but sometimes she manages to ask things that are eerily on-point with where my emotions are at.

    ... Granted, because she believes PCOS is a conspiracy to punish women by making them infertile and because she knows I'm in my thirties. But eerily on point with where a lot of my thoughts have been since that woman was telling me how much her life changed after she got pregnant and just generally feeling incredibly stuck and without choices in life.

    Conversations I feel like I can't have with anyone. Like, if I have those conversations with anyone, they'll totally freak out. Either because my friends who are women will think I'm thinking seriously about trying, or the men in my life will be worried I'm going to ask them to be a sperm donor.*

    Ana doesn't even know about the sexual dysfunction, I don't think. So the question from her is a lot more eery. Like if Alicia had asked, it's like, she knows I have this barrier in my life that sort of makes my life complicated in the family planning/starting aspect.

    *I guess I'd be worried about that too. I guess it's not such a far-flung theory that if I ever went that route I'd want it to be someone I knew. But I usually find it's easier to talk to men about S.D. stuff.

    OH MY GOD

    Sep. 18th, 2017 11:40 pm
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    Monique literally lost her shit when she found out I wasn't coming in tonight. I'd gotten permission from Isha around 6pm.

    The real reason is that she's pissed off she won't get to sit there turning off her alarm and going back to sleep all night without getting up until 6:40am.

    This was it. I decided even if it means sleeping privileges are revoked, I'm going to talk to Isha about how Monique oversleeps during the shift. I can't stand that she has the gall to do 1-2 checks the entire night last night and kept turning off her alarm and now she wants to whine that I'm not coming in again so she can do the same bullshit tonight.

    I even pretended to fall asleep last night to see if she would do the checks? And she didn't. I literally saw her still turning off her alarm and going back to sleep. I still had to get up and do the checks because she wouldn't.

    That's the only reason why I would want to cut my hours. It's not like I thought it'd be super awesome to make less money. It's because it's causing to much sleep deprivation and resentment of my co-worker.

    Work:

    Sep. 18th, 2017 06:26 pm
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    I asked for tonight off, too.

    I've decided when we don't need two staff I'll take 1-3 days off per week to ensure that when I am there, I am able to remain awake.

    Like I don't want to rat out Monique because it would cause interpersonal conflict at work (and potentially make them more strictly enforce it being an 'AWAKE' shift whereas they have to date been currently lenient and let us work it among ourselves.) It's a lot easier to offer to divide shifts (like do three days/two days and then switch the next week) or come in less personally.

    But it's not fair to basically see someone sleeping next to you all night and know that if you fall asleep that person isn't going to have the checks covered. If I need to be asleep, I won't come in, because I can't trust her to stay awake. I don't want to be liable for dozing off on someone who needs 10-30 minute checks.

    Verge

    Sep. 18th, 2017 08:19 am
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    I am on the verge of having a frank discussion with Monique about how much she sleeps at work.

    Tonight she kept turning her alarm off and continuing to sleep all night. She basically got seven hours of sleep. This has not been an unusual turn of events.

    We both work 80+ hours/week, we both have dysfunctional home situations, it's not fair for one person to get all the sleep.

    Of course, the other thing I've considered is simply taking more time off the night job whenever there are three clients or less. That way, if something happens, at least I'm not liable, whereas if she tells me she's doing checks and then she is simply sleeping the whole night, I am equally liable.

    Progress

    Sep. 18th, 2017 03:02 am
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    My UCSD courses don't start until next week, so right now I'm just working on the TEFL course. I couldn't do it when my co-worker was watching iZombie, but she's currently asleep.

    I also filled out a new C1 for my U.K. Passport. I just need to finish putting in my mother's address and her passport information, then ask her to get information that may be relevant for them (her marriage certificate to my father changing her surname, then the divorce paperwork, then the marriage certificate where she took her current husband's surname. It might be none of that is relevant because she probably has to put that information in when renewing her passport... But still.

    I deleted POF/Tinder. I've come to the conclusion that men are depressing. Hundreds and hundreds of men 'like' me, in the hopes that they'll hook up, just as they are 'liking' every damn woman on those sites. I'm just going to try to get back to doing classes, going to the gym, etc. I'm not necessarily holding out for a serious relationship only - but I don't believe I'm likely to respect guys when I see evidence of the grazing approach. Like they couldn't care less about compatibility. Forever alone? Whatever. It's better than being depressed by a constant barrage of dudes hoping for a one-night stand.

    Thoughts

    Sep. 18th, 2017 12:14 am
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    With regard to Jordan (as much as I'm trying to just completely mind-wipe myself about his existence), I think what happened with regard to him lying about "not meeting the language qualifications for CSU Fullerton/CSU LB" is that I don't think he applied to them. I think he probably tried to apply to a few UCs - the ones that were prestigious enough to fill the needs of his ego.

    But the University of California requires two years of a foreign language. Hence he didn't get in. And then was embarrassed that he didn't apply. Or maybe he had lied to his parents and had told him he didn't get into any of those schools, and then kept that lie for everyone, not realizing what a bad lie that was, because the CSUs are far more numerous and everyone knows the key difference in transferring to a UC or a CSU is whether or not it requires a foreign language.

    Anyway, he got into York in England, and that school is highly regarded, so it's not like his GPA wasn't high enough, it would be, as he said, just the language requirements.

    (I've also considered that he may have intentionally did what he did to give himself an excuse to go back to Europe to complete his education, as European schools are considered more prestigious. And for all I know, he had a reason to want to go back to England. Be it homesickness, friends, a girl, whatever. But his ego seems enough on its own.)




    I want to work on my TEFL course but I can't do it without headphones.

    I was also looking at applying to UK Starbucks and working on BACP coursework.

    It might make more sense to make an extended visit to my aunt and her husband's place, though, and figure my working situation out. I'd like to try to work in Italy, France, Spain, Germany, and Portugal. But I was thinking I'd like to stop by the UK a while first since technically I'm a citizen. Plus I could then work on counseling and BACP stuff while there. (I'd like to do coursework in those countries too? But only to learn the language.)

    It'll probably be a lot easier to find work if already at least on the right continent.

    Long day!

    Sep. 17th, 2017 02:46 am
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    Breakfast with partner and metamour Leopard Girl.

    Seanan McGuire event in Silverdale. We brought tribute, and were briefly Seanan's favorite. (Diet Dr Pepper and candy corn. Seanan is a being of predictable tastes.)

    Mini muffin tin quest!

    Partner made a note they should chat with our mutual friend in London about stuff. Hooray, viable communities.

    Dinner for the extended polycule, with many dishes thanks to Trader Joe's. (Rice, orange chicken with extra zesty sauce but no carrots since we ran out, BBQ pork buns, pot stickers, spring rolls, and green beans. The rice and green beans weren't pre-packaged, and I do a little customization to the chicken by adding orange peel and scallions. The gyoza and bao steam over the rice, and the spring rolls could bake with the chicken. The green beans start frozen and get gently fried with seasonings. Usually it's butter and Montreal steak seasoning, but Stray Puppy Girl is very lactose intolerant, and Leopard Girl dislikes red pepper. So I went for sesame oil, garlic, onion, pepper, salt, ginger, a packet of soy sauce that needed using, and the excess teriyaki sauce from the other night. It turned out well. To my immense gratification, my partner really likes all the iterations of the green beans that I have made so far. Generally they disappear immediately.)

    Club night. Without going into excessive detail, one of the groups near the people I was with were having a hilarious time, and kept setting each other off giggling. That prompted our group to giggle. The glee was infectious.

    Everyone is spending the night. We hauled the camping pads out of the alleged guest room (it is currently not in a state for guests as my textiles have exploded all over it) and they're set up next to the futon in case it turns from cozy to crowded in the middle of the night. Things are well set up for breakfast, and there should be cheesecake at some point (thus the mini muffin tins).
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